Two Whole Years.

Has it really already been two whole years since I graduated high school?

Most of my friends up in Utah are probably rolling their eyes (because they're all older than me... haha), but this is huge for me!

My mind likes to think I'm still 18 years old with no responsibility.

High school rocked. It really did. High school was probably the easiest thing I have ever done in my life, even though at the time I would've thought different. My problems back then were far more insignificant than they are now. I was so worried about boys, having friends, and other things that were not necessarily unimportant, but just a lot sillier to worry about than I realize now.

When I got into high school, that was finally when I got out of my shell. I was no longer afraid to talk to boys (don't judge me!), and I gained a lot more confidence than I had in elementary school and junior high. I also never thought that graduation would've come so soon. And it really did. Looking back on it now, those 4 years of high school flashed right before my eyes. I took it all for granted, especially with how easy it was.

I was worried about my friends. We were all always getting into so many fights, and hanging out with so many different people all the time. I was worried about boys and I was alwayswanting a boyfriend. Or just some boy to like me. I was dramatic - I was in theater for crying out loud. I played soccer freshman and sophomore year, and OH how I miss soccer! I was always taking honors and AP classes. I excelled in my classes, and only now do I realize how easy it really was.

I am still worried about my friends, but we definitely don't fight as much, or even fight about any of the same things as I did in high school, because, well hopefully, we have all matured past that (with a few exceptions...). I'm still worried about "boys", but most definitely in a different sense, because now they are men. And I happen to have a fantastic one at that. Even if I didn't have James, I wouldn't (and wasn't before I met him) so worried about always having someone like me. I grew more into just having people to be close to; to help me grow as a person, which I have. I'm still dramatic - You can take the kid from the theater, but you can't take the theater from the kid ;) But I also believe that my being dramatic also deals with different things. I still miss soccer. I wish I would've stayed with it and I still played it. And now I understand how easy high school was because of one thing: College. It's COMPLETELY different. It's a lot harder, and you have to push yourself and find motivation within yourself, because now you don't have your teachers or parents breathing down your neck every second.

I miss high school. But would I do it again? Probably not. I had fun, and gained a lot of good memories and experiences, but I'm ready to face what life has to offer me and grow into the person that I was meant to be.