Venting.

Last night I was on the phone with my sister and we were making jokes about how I'm "truly" an adult now because I have bought my own wrapping paper. Not the fact that I bought my own car, pay my rent, or buy my own groceries, but that I bought my wrapping paper to wrap my Christmas presents :)

Since then, I have been thinking about how it's been being an "adult" (I STILL don't think of myself that way... I still feel way too young).

I just feel like since I have progressed to this stage in my life, I am now stuck in a rut. I should be in school, moving forward with life and making myself into the person that I want to be. However, in order to be in school, I need to work less so I can actually go to class and have time to do my homework. But I can't work less... I have a car payment. I wouldn't have a car payment, but I need a car to get to work so I can make money to pay for rent/school/car/etc.

It's a vicious cycle. I'm stuck. I have to have a job, and I can't work less than I already do, which means I can't go to school and progress in my life.

I need to win the lottery.